They're turning against me

To be honest, this is harder than I expected. I knew it would be challenging, but I thought we would just be adding a baby to our family as it is now. I didn't expect that it would change everything else.

Q is acting up A LOT. I took him to the park tonight to spend a little one-on-one time with him and give him the attention he is clearly craving. After half an hour, it was starting to get chilly and late, so I told him it was time to go. He collapsed to the ground. When I picked him up, he started pulling my hair and hitting me in the face. Nice, huh? He is just impossible to reason with when he is like that. It is frustrating and saddening. I think it is hard to deal with too when you are sleep-deprived. Sometimes I just ache with exhaustion. I can't wait till R sleeps through the night. T goes back to work in just over a week, plus he goes to school all day Saturdays, so I will be outnumbered six days a week. I just don't know how stay-at-home moms do it. I honestly don't.

Thankfully, T and I got a little break today. Our childcare provider took Q for a few hours. We went to lunch with the baby. Then I got my hair done, and we got cappuccinos afterward. It was a nice vacation from the tantrums. Q used to be such a sweet-natured little baby, and now he is a toddler terror. It is not a change for the better.

--MM